The Talk Back: What Kind of Community Do We Want?

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Last week, I published an episode of Sacred Tension with Lucien Greaves responding to the recent controversy in The Satanic Temple. See that post to get caught up.

I’m glad I released the episode. I felt I needed to as a matter of conscience, and that I couldn’t live with myself if I didn’t. I feel like I’ve lanced a boil on my conscience that was going septic. At the same time, conscience errs. I know that the episode probably wasn’t perfect, and I’m willing to hear people out if they think I fucked up. I can live with both my imperfection and the requirements of my conscience. Whether other people can too is between them and Satan.

Unless something new happens that requires my commentary, I believe I’m done publicly discussing this controversy. That does not mean I’m closed to dialogue behind the scenes. By all means, my DMs are open. I’m just ready to move on to the stuff that I enjoy writing about.

Since publishing the episode, I’ve received an outpouring of responses, both privately and publicly. Some of the responses were filled with rage, disappointment, and hurt. Others were filled with relief, hope, and gratitude. I don’t think I’ve ever received such a diversity of feedback.

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What Kind of Community Do We Want? | Lucien Greaves

In this episode of Sacred Tension, I’m joined by The Satanic Temple co-founder Lucien Greaves to discuss the recent controversy in our religious community. He was recently photographed with an alleged sexual harasser and transphobe, and we reflect on the kind of culture we want to see in The Satanic Temple and why Lucien has responded the way he has to this controversy.

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A Satanism of Mastery

Everyone’s Satanism is different. For some, Satanism will be a religion of hedonism and reclaiming physical pleasure from the clutches of repressive religion. For others, it will be based in centering outsiders or embracing outsider status. All of these are valid expressions of Satanism, and I share many of them myself.

As I’ve contemplated my Satanic path, I’ve come to realize that my own Satanism is one of mastery. In the myth, Satan rejects the tyranny of God and sets out on a path of self-deification. In my view, the icon of Satan as the eternal rebel, the triumphant iconoclast, and the unbowed will is the ultimate symbol of mastery.

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Self Care During COVID-19

I’ve been quiet on my blog and podcast for the past few weeks, and that’s because I’ve been coping with being an essential worker during the COVID-19 pandemic. I co-manage a small family-owned grocery store in Appalachia, and the past few weeks have simply been harrowing.

When the panic first hit, it felt like the worst hurricane in history was coming for North Carolina. Our sales more than doubled, and I felt destroyed just trying to keep up, while also keeping staff and customers safe from invisible death dots that could strike anyone without notice. Eventually, as the craziness at the store settled down into a manageable level, my fatigue turned to crippling anxiety. I was crying myself to sleep, and having horrible panic as I drove to work.

It felt like all my structures and support systems were just swept away by the flood. I’ve spent the past few weeks picking up the pieces, and now here I am, well enough to get back to creating.

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I Am Now An Outsider to the Christian LGBT Community I Helped Build, And That Hurts

Several days ago, an ugly battle over the resurrection of Christ exploded on theological twitter. It started when two prominent theologians started tweeting about a non-literal perspective of the resurrection, and the conversation quickly devolved into a morass of ugliness and bitterness. The details of the debate are immaterial to this post, so I won’t get into them. What stands out to me, though, is that many of the people defending the literal view of the resurrection were my fellow LGBT progressives. As I read through these tweets, and absorbed a toxic dose of twitter radiation, I had a painful realization, and I suddenly understood why my departure from credal Christian faith has hurt so much. I realized that, over the course of years, I slowly became an outsider to the very LGBT communities I helped build.

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